When finally you start to accept your RA and understand after long time diagnosis is set, that you need to change habits and routine too, you start to put all down. Read, talk, listen. For everyone it is different. But for all of us is one common thing. Its is easiest part to make a plan, routine. The hardest part is to stick to it for 100%. To fight with yourself. Every single day, hour. Even second. We all lie a bit and cheat. Especially at the beginning. And after even few months when you start to realise that sticking to plan is helping and you feel better for sure every day. But still you, we all - we fight in our head. Still in the same level. As that little devil in our brains challenge us more harder and higher lever. Always is looking for that spot of weakness, which you missed or didn't covered properly.

I have all that still. But i am controlling him more and more. In my way. What fits for me. He is awful. He never will give up. He will be here always. Inside my head. When i compare beginning and now. I made big progress. And the most important thing in all this new chapter in life. I have perfect life partner, wife. Who supports me. We can't do it alone. No one. No matter how strong we are. I realised that in right time. She is big support. Even without saying anything, when she seems me struggling, tired. Bit cheating too. But she sees me doing my best. And that i am not giving up and never will. Support is a key too. In my fight with the worst enemy and devil in our world. My own brains. They are cheeky.

Every day is different. Even second. But it keeps me go, understand. See progress too. Change plan to reach new goals. To keep me going. To have target. RA is fight. Team fight. I have perfect partner. Who will load up guns for me while all world is against me.